Posted by
John on Tuesday, July 01, 2008 2:01:46 PM
Do you ever have those moments where things just totally make sense? It's been beautiful in Cambridge these last few days, the sun has been out, the weather is in the 60s; everything is truly beautiful. You can feel spring on the horizon, and you can smell the earth and the life outside again, as the sun melts away the barren ice that once covered the ground. The only thing missing is the green grass, but even that is beginning to poke its way out of certain places. I guess I can see why Easter is in the spring.
Anyways, I decided to run outside again because I don't have to worry about slipping and spraining my ankle on the ice (I only have to worry about my own clumsiness without complicating things). I was listening to del amitri, a song called "tell her this" and everything just felt awesome. The wind was blowing, the sky was open, the sun was shining, and as I stood on a bridge over the charles river, looking out into the distance, things just felt right. Perhaps it was the sentimental connections that I have to this particular song, mixed with some magic in the weather, but I felt as though God truly has put me in this moment, that I am meant to be here and that things are as they should be. I felt free of doubt, of uncertainty over myself and others. I felt awesome, and I felt truly blessed. I even cried a little bit, the good sort of crying that is often necessary one or more times a season. Sure, school can be demanding at times and life presents its own challenges, but I have people around me who love me, a family I adore, a boyfriend to die for and a faith that constantly challenges me. What else is there to need in these moments?